Shadow boxing heart beats thinking jabs could push you away so I reduce to name calling cutting calls short, hurtful words hitting nerves and making things worst ‘til you start to blame yourself trying hard to make it work knowing damn well for certain you deserve something more but you’re deserting all the reasons how the hell you love me still? I’m just a flaw in all regards still searching for the thrill, I never meant to cause you harm though I know I surely will.
before I shower:ugh damn it i'm too lazy and i don't want to shower ill do it later
when I'm in the shower:sweet jesus christ what is this magical fuckery this is the most relaxing thing ever it's like a vacation in my own bathroom so warm so magical this is holy water that's been blessed by god himself i never want to leave this spot as it wraps its pleasuring waters or warmth around my body
“Happiness is the most natural thing in the world when you have it, and the slowest, strangest, most impossible thing when you don’t. It’s like learning a foreign language: You can think about the words all you want, but you’ll never be able to speak it until you suck up your courage and say them out loud.”—Dan Wells, Partials (via larmoyante)